Friday, 23 October 2015

Taking a break

When I was 19 I moved away from home to start university in a city that was unfamiliar, and I started writing a blog as a way of keeping my family up to date with what I was doing. Those early blog posts are long gone now, as I used to write on a different blogging platform, which I don't think exists anymore. I grew to love writing as a way of processing life, and creating a documentation of things I was doing and making and learning. That was eleven years ago. Eleven years. That is a very long time. I am so glad that I have taken time to write some of my stories from the last decade here on this space, but in all honesty? Lately, I've lost my rhythm. In a time when we have a young family, I still have the desire to document our life, perhaps now more than ever. But I have often felt torn between how much I want to share the details of our lives in a public space like this, and how much I want to write the details of our lives down, just for us to look at and reminisce on. I think that by giving myself permission to take a break from writing here, I will get more from writing just for me and my family - not needing to think about who might be reading these words and the kind of editing my words that comes naturally with writing a blog for all the world to see.

Recently, I have been finding it harder to make time for blogging. My little baking business is thriving and takes up a lot of my 'free' time in the evenings and during Ruby's naptime, and I have just started a distance learning course in Montessori Education. I am very thankful for how my business is growing, and the opportunity to study again, but it does mean that something has to give. And it seems that blogging is something I need to let go of for now.

I will continue to post each Sunday for The 52 Project until the end of the year, as I will be continuing on with this project regardless, so it makes sense to continue sharing the photos and letters to Ruby.

This is not a decision to stop blogging completely - I am sure there will be things I want to write about in this space - but I have decided to be pro-active and respond to that niggle that I often have that I have been neglecting this space. While stopping blogging might not seem pro-active as such, for me, it is, because it means that I am allowing myself to acknowledge that I simply can't do everything I would like to, and that I no longer have the words I once did to write in this space. Although the comments section on my blog has always been a very quiet space, I know that many of you stop by here regularly to read my posts, and I really do appreciate that you take an interest in my words, photos and recipes. Thank you so much for reading this little blog of mine, and if you would still like to see what I am up to when I am not writing much here, please feel free to connect with me on Instagram - you can find me as @hannahruthking. 

Sunday, 18 October 2015

The 52 Project: 42/52

'A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2015.'

Dear Ruby,
We went to a Forest School for the first time this week, which meant you got to wear wellies for the first time ever. You walked like an astronaut on the moon and insisted on being carried. So it didn't take me long to suggest wearing your Summer sandals instead. You were delighted with this idea and themoment  you were back in familiar footwear, you were off and running, not perturbed in the slightest by the Autumn chill that is in the air. 

You have also discovered the delights of quinoa this week, which you call, 'pee wah wah'. Your love of Babybel cheeses is showing no signs of waning - every time we open the fridge, you come and request 'baby'. It's a good thing we understand what you mean. Other people might be disconcerted by your association between fridges and babies, but thankfully, it makes complete sense. 

Lately, you have become determined to push modes of transport, rather than being pushed in them. For example, trolleys at the supermarket and your buggy. What a sight it is to see your little frame pushing around giant trolleys and buggys. I love your determination. 

Your language amazes me on a daily basis and I have been thinking a lot lately about how grateful I am that I get to spend my days with you. It would be so much harder to join up the dots of the stories you tell and the thoughts you share with us if I wasn't the one living out those experiences with you. This week, you have talked a lot about fire and bananas ('filowah, nana!') after we ate cooked bananas and chocolate at Forest School. I love this stage of language development where you communicate so much but in incomplete sentences. Last month, I started writing a list of words that you can say, and got to about 150 words. I have since stopped writing that list, because I can't keep up. Every day you say new things, and piece words together into short sentences ('let's go!...all fall down...this one...Immi, Sasa (Susannah), jump!') I am sure that soon enough I will be jotting down whole conversations that we have. 
All my love,
Mama xxx

P.S As it's my birthday today I thought I would break away from the norm and use a portrait of the both of us from our morning walk to the beach today.

Saturday, 17 October 2015

The 52 Project: 41/52

'A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2015.'

Dear Ruby,
When I think about our conversations this week, a lot of them have centred around hot air balloons. You seem completely fascinated by these beautiful big balloons that we often seeing flying over our city. You have asked to look at photos of them on my phone and you search out the pages in our books that you know have hot air balloons on them. Thank you for sharing your interests with me. I love seeing what captures your attention. 
All my love,
Mama

Wednesday, 7 October 2015

A little interview over at Nathalie Bond Organics

I feel honoured to have been interviewed by the lovely team at Nathalie Bond Organics as part of their blog series on women who run their own businesses. So if you would like to learn a little bit more about the story behind my baking business, Milk & Honey Bakes, and my favourite kind of coffee (very important!), make yourself a cup of your favourite brew and head on over to their blog to read the interview! You can find it here.

Tuesday, 6 October 2015

The 52 Project: 40/52

'A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2015'

Dear Ruby,
I have this memory of going to the woods with my family when I was a girl. We were going to pick blackberries, and I sulked for the whole car journey there, and refused to get out of the car, just because my older brother loved the woods, and I didn't want to do something he loved. That trip was a good lesson in realising that the rest of the family could and would have fun, even if I was disgruntled. I also learnt that sitting by myself in the car and feeling cross was a horrible way to feel, and eventually I relented and joined the family. Thankfully, I have changed, and I now think that woods are wonderful. I wish we lived closer to some so that you could explore all of the nooks and crannies and coves on a more regular basis. Anyhow, you currently love walking in the woods, and I hope this doesn't change, even when you have siblings who might also love it. Keep exploring, little one.
All my love,
Mummy